My character's general looks fall under the 'Skinhead' aesthetic; a title given to an early punk style of clothing in Britain; as opposed to mods who could afford the latest fashion trends, skinheads were often of the working class; typically wearing Dr. Martens, plaid shirts, suspenders, and boot-cut jeans.
My character most-likely suffers from some form of depersonalisation, or dissociative identity disorder. After researching, I found a good description of what my character should be going through, which were symptoms of Dissociative Identity Disorder:
"Dissociative identity disorder is characterized by the presence of two or more distinct or split identities or personality states that continually have power over the person's behavior. With dissociative identity disorder, there's also an inability to recall key personal information that is too far-reaching to be explained as mere forgetfulness. With dissociative identity disorder, there are also highly distinct memory variations, which fluctuate with the person's split personality.
The "alters" or different identities have their own age, sex, or race. Each has his or her own postures, gestures, and distinct way of talking. Sometimes the alters are imaginary people; sometimes they are animals. As each personality reveals itself and controls the individuals' behaviour and thoughts, it's called "switching." Switching can take seconds to minutes to days. When under hypnosis, the person's different "alters" or identities may be very responsive to the therapist's requests." - Web MD
People with dissociative identity disorder may also find themselves experiencing headaches, time loss, and doing things they would not normally do, such as being outwardly violent, though they feel as if they are compelled to do it and have no choice. Whilst 99% of the time, this disorder comes as a result of childhood trauma or neglect, I feel as though this should be subverted with my character, and instead, they have chosen to detach themselves from a violent/obscure side of themselves which has always been present; for example, when they were younger they would do things like picking the wings off butterflies or pull the heads off small birds, once told this was extremely unnatural, they buried it deep within themselves, though as they could not control their urges, they eventually developed the disorder, and whenever they go out killing, they experience a time loss where they do not remember what happened.
The image of someone smoking is more like a 'symbol' of how they vent or cope with their issues. Rather than smoking, the character will go out and kill to satisfy the 'needs' of their other identity; the bloody images representing this violence.
When not experiencing time loss, they are fully aware of the acts they commit, and understand that the majority are extremely morally wrong, though their second identity is the complete opposite; they have a love and even fascination for violence, blood, and gore, and will by any means do what they must to experience it.
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